.Wednesday, 11 March 2009 ' 4:30 pm Y
& you're so going to miss me.
It's my 240th post. Random.
I need a job. I need $$. Arghh. I've been thinking a lot. About you and me. Are these enough for me? Or should I deserve more? Am I giving too much? In your mind, it's never enough or that's the least I should do? So, how do I think about how you treat me? I think I deserve more and better. Am I asking too much from you? Or has the love for you faded? Or am I just missing you too much that I am thinking too much? I am having mixed feelings. Is it a habit? Having you by my side, has it become a habit already? Things that you should do, you did not. No point listing everything out here. What the fuck am I thinking about? I really don't have a clue about what's in my mind. I do feel the love and bliss. But why the fuck am I having such thoughts? Am I just living in denial or what? What is it that I really want? Fuck.
Can I lalala my troubles off?
Felt so emotionally drained just now. So drained that tears couldn't stop. All thanks to my gf, Jiahui. She talked sense into me, making me feel better. For the first time, I felt so drained. But, I am fine now. Thanks, Jiahui.
Alright, off to watch Perfect Cut 2. :)
