.Tuesday, 7 October 2008 ' 11:17 pm Y
& you're so going to miss me.
Not going to blog about Jianlin's birthday. Sorry people.
I've thought it through. All thanks to a friend. He told me what and how a guy thinks. He told me if a guy ask a girl to wait, there's a little possibility that he will come back to her. If a guy really loves a girl, he will not make her wait, he will love her with all his heart. It's either he's playing around, he's afraid to hurt the girl or he doesn't know how to break the news to the girl. So his feelings towards me is one of the three, or maybe all three.
How dumb I am. Itchy butts,I can live my life happily and do away with the sadness, but I don't want. I foolishly suffered for 1 month and 9 days. This period of time may sound short, but it sucks not being able to be happy from the bottom of my heart. Faking smiles sucks. And waiting is very tiring actually, it makes me worn out, emotionally and mentally. Just plain waiting.Waiting for time to pass, waiting for the day to come. I've been telling myself, blink blink and 2 years will pass. CRAPS.
I am not important at all. You told me I can be your forever, but look what I've gotten now? I always believe there's no forever, you gave me hope. You said with you, forever will appear in my dictionary, but look, what I've gotten now again? You told me you've been waiting for me, you told me you want me, you gave me a promise (an empty one), you believe in lasting relationship, you gave me your word that you will not let me down, you told me you'll treasure me, you fucking told me you are afraid to lose me and get hurt again, you told me that we will hold our hands tight together and push everything through. Guess what? This is what I got from you. Thanks a million.
