.Thursday, 14 August 2008 ' 1:17 am Y
& you're so going to miss me.
Ivan Yak Wen Jie,
It's been 16 days together. From the start, I was told how much a jerk and playboy you are, and how "true" you are to your gf. I didn't believe, I choose not to believe anything. First few days were sweet, like an ant having endless supply of candy. Sweet messages filled with care and love, but not from the bottom of his heart. Long hours of get together. Promises, so empty. You say things with your mouth, but your heart doesn't follow your mouth. You said I love you, but do you really mean it? I wonder.
So, as time passes, you started to ignore me. I am starting to get sick of the relationship. I still did not give up, because I believe problems could be solved. So, you've been waking up late and not going to school, maybe because you don't want to see me. Sending you messages are like sending messages to someone very very far away from me, somehow it takes ages for you to reply me. For the past few days, he did not give me the attention a gf should be getting. Yes, by this time, I know problems have arise. I still did nothing.
On the 16th day, you told me something. "I think I can't be with you.I'm sorry." Reason being him not having enough time for me. You could have manage your time well. But, since you are such a jerk, I think breaking off is the best solution. You told me you can't give me enough attention. Deep in me, I know. I know why you can't give me enough attention. the things that you want, you can't get it from me. Since you can't get what you want, you feel that it's better that we go separate ways.
2 days ago, you sent me strange messages. You asked me if I hate you. Why should I? Maybe I should , but I don't. You told me you are too busy. Busy? Busy over what? Archery? Sleeping? If you don't want to see me, just let me know. I wouldn't blame you, because somehow I know you are sick of me already. You told me you are not giving me enough attention. Then you should at least try. The fact you didn't try tells me you are not serious at all. U don't treat me like your toy. I am not a toy. Being your gf is not tough actually, just as long as she gives you what you want, it isn't tough anymore.
I was trying my best to salvage the relationship. Trying my best to make it last longer. But, I failed. Was trying to get attention from you by sending you multiple messages. But,it all lies with that thing that you really need and I couldn't give.
Now, that everything is over. Forget it!! I am still the happy and bubbly me.
Kop kuhn samrap kwan song jam tee suai ngarm. Yah kit mah chan behn kuhn ngo!! Bai dai, sah!!
And she ended this post with a big smile on her face =D
