.Tuesday, 1 July 2008 ' 2:57 pm Y
& you're so going to miss me.
*cries* I fucking hate school!!
Coming to school everyday makes me feel like a retard. I am just like a brainless bitch. With facilitators like ah pek, I think I'll break down some day and suffer from depression. Modules like analogue electronics and circuit analysis, they are killing me. They are just like those blood suckers sucking the juice out of my brain cells, leaving me with just the skull. FUCK!!
How lucky am I to get such a good damn course? A course that makes me feel so dumb in all my 18 years of life for the first time. My brain just works like a new born baby. Or maybe they are smarter than me? Hate myself for getting such bad results for O levels. But what can I do now? I can't go back to the past. FUCK!!
I DREAD SCHOOL!! I don't want to do what I am doing now. Studying what I don't understand. Whenever I see the 6Ps, I 'll just stare at the screen, stoning, and going to somewhere that I hope I can be in. There are too many distractions around me. And worse of all, RP uses the laptop for everything. And I'll be so tempted to stop studying and get on with the games and music and what so ever. Even though I try so hard to understand what I am studying, I just can't fucking absorb and know what it is all about. I tried. I really tried, but I just can't get anything out of it. FUCK!!
I am tired. Really tired of school. Tired of everything I am going through now. School life is great!! How right could that be? Can someone bring me to somewhere far? FAR FAR away from school and all these shit!! FUCK!!
FUCK!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
